All In Me

Monday, January 12, 2009 ♥

Today is the 12th January and for nobody cares it is already been a month of living life without him. Keeping myself strong is the most hardest thing but it was the most important thing I have to do. Life has to go on, with or without him, but the feeling and the emotions were the worst thing I ever went through. And that was just part of it. Friends everywhere helped and advice me a lot but still it is easier said than done and you know it. I can’t forget him… I still look up to him in a way… I am still expecting him to be there… I do still love him… And I want things to be normal again, like the way things were before all this happens… Before we get together… Why can’t we just be that normal friend again? Why must there be this barrier between us?

Anyway, this goes to you who have been treating me in a “special” way. You know who you are!! The one thing I hate a lot about you is that you always judge him. Seriously, you don’t need to judge him and keep telling me that I don’t deserve this. Maybe that is true… Maybe I don’t deserve this but please stop repeating everything again and again.

Also the worst part is, you had the courage to try and get me. You are seriously getting into my nerves!!! You want straight forward, I give you straight forward. GET OUT OF MY LIFE AND STAY FAR!!!! I DON’T NEED YOU HERE IF YOU ARE GOING TO ACT LIKE THIS… I don’t care what you felt for me for what I know I don’t need it right now. You know this hurts me a lot and you still dare to ask me out on a date. That’s fine… I know I have to let go of this sooner or later but get this in mind… WE ARE JUST FRIENDS SO STOP ACTING LIKE IM URS!!! I feel uncomfortable with your extra care. I treat you as a friend only so please stop that childish act.

WE ARE JUST FRIENDS ONLY!!! And what’s up with you just now? It is very stupid of you to be angry about small unnecessary things… Give me the reasons again why can’t I say a person is cute? I seriously don’t get you. Why does it even matter to you? Saying a person is cute does not mean that you are interested in that person. That person is cute… You can’t deny facts right? And this is my right… There is no law against me about this… It didn’t state that I can’t say a person is cute… Wait… Don’t tell me you are jealous? You are so unreasonable...

Hasta La Vista

listened to the sweet sound @ 11:43 PM