Saturday, November 29, 2008 ♥
Hey hey hey…
I haven’t been updating my blog lately..No adventures, what to do??? Well, today there’s a lot that has happen. =P
Days after school…
I went to the sports complex today and see my Rock Climbing frends..AT LAST!!! I really miss them laaa. I miss climbing also. I know I am going to climb again one day..one day… anyway, they climbers are preparing a birthday bash rock climbing style !!! Haha…BANANA SPLIT !!!! Main ingredients?? Haha..Banana (of course), chocolate syrup, flour (haha) and turmeric powder (teehees)… This is made especially for the two b’dae boys..Eat them yaw !!! HAPPIEEE BIRTHDAY !!!!!!
>The Banana Split !!!!
After this was REFLECTION CLOSING BASH !!!!!!! Wakakaka…Taufik Batisah !!!!! Hmm… there was a lot of performance and the whole package was awesome. Love the lighting and the surround. Everything was excellent (not perfect coz my Baby Weewee wasn’t there with me).
First up was Sonic Avenue, Syaz was the drummer.. Cool la sei..haha.. U ROCK MAN !!! The next performance was Freaky Z.. He was super fun la. His songs were all not bad. Quite to my liking surprisingly. Then was Pravin and erm this guy from Triple Noise singing I’ll Always Love You. And then again, I was thinking of my Baby. Next up was RP’s very own Hip Hop Crew. Ragu and Aini performed and they were hopping hot I tell you. The crew was awesome !!!! ..
Then there is this group called Natalie something (sorry, I forgot..teehees). They were actually doing all this for their FYP. Cool shit or wat?? (quoted by Syukri). There’s this guy after that singing Chinese song. It was nice but boredom as well (don’t ask me how nice and bored click to each other). The second best performance was…REPLUG !!!!! Oh my God, the guy was totally cute la and he sing like there was no tmr..FABULOUS !!! .. then..then..then..came TAUFIK !!!!!!
Haha.. just so you know, I got no hots on him okae..not for the Replug guy also. Yeah yeah..they are cute and all.. But, my Baby will always be the cutest and the hottest. Blueks !!! I bought Taufik’s newest album Suria Hatiku and got his autograph. No, I still don’t adore him. I bought it out of boredom and coz im feeling very crazy. The one and only person in my heart is my Baby. NO ONE ELSE !!!!
>Oh mY Oh mY...
> Friends Forever
>Muacks !!
Well, there you go. That’s my adventure after school. Now who say RP suck??? RP is the best okae !!! Coz we ROCK.. =P
ps. Wanie...I update already okae.. Teehees =D
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 1:37 AM
Monday, November 24, 2008 ♥
Once I thought you were not important.
I thought not having you was the best thing that can happen.
I’m wrong..Really wrong.
I miss you. I miss you a lot.
You were there when I was sick.
You were there when I was in pain.
You are always there for me, rain and shine.
You are right. I am very ungrateful.
For everything that you have done I took advantage of it.
I didn’t appreciate it.
I didn’t care about it.
I’m really really sorie.
I know this is not enough. This won’t do.
This won’t heal.
After what I’ve done each and everday.
And now you are gone.
Not there anymore.
Gone…
It feels that I am too late.
Too late to change.
Too late to ask for forgiveness.
I’ve done too much and it hurts you.
Love was there, care was there.
Everything is there, it’s just me who didn’t see it.
Didn’t appreciate it.
I am really really sorie..
I want you back.
I want you here.
Pls…
Every night I cry for not getting what I want.
Feeling that you don’t understand me.
Feeling that you don’t care and you don’t love.
Hating you for all that.
Wishing you will just give me my life.
But now, I cried to get you back.
Wishing that what I wished didn’t come true.
I am really sorie..
Really really sorie…
Ytd I realize I didn’t cry alone.
My sister cried with me.
It makes me feel worse.
What I did didn’t only affect me, it affects my surrounding as well.
I’m sorie…
Now I really wish that I’ll just disappear.
Since I can’t turn everything around.
Since I can’t go back to the past.
But deep inside, I’m really hoping that is not what you want.
Pls forgive me…pls…
Im really sorie
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 1:22 AM
Friday, November 21, 2008 ♥
People say I am crazy.. Some say I got nothing better to do..
I woke up super early todae (for me la)..hehe.. At 6.30am, my alarm clock rang. Lalala..I was out of my house by 7.30am to go school. Well, this is super early la.. School is at Woodlands and class starts at 9am. I live in Yishun !!! It takes about 10 min from Yishun to go to Woodlands by Mrt. Hehe..
I took the long cut to school todae and took 1 hr 30 mins to reach school. It was fun, exciting, and made my emotions run high..Haha..I WALK TO SCHOOL TODAY !!! Hehe.. By the time I reached school, my stress is gone, tiredness and sleepiness turns to hyper and energetic.
Yishun – Sembawang: there wasn’t any nice view. Everything was…erm…dull. So I am not going to talk about it except that it was the longest journey. I took 30 mins to reached there.
Sembawang – Admiralty: Hmm.. What do I need to say?? There are only factories and factories and more factories. But..but..but before I enter the rows of factories, there is a smell of satay.. Hahaha.. I don’t know where that comes from but yeah..Satay !!!! And when I reached the end, there is roasted chicken smell.. Hahaha…
Admiralty – Woodlands: 1 comment only..Admiralty is the best place ever !!! Its flora there is really really nice. I love the whitish flower the most. It gives out very nice smell which brings up my mood and keep the tired feeling away. To add on, it somehow relieve my stress.. I am guessing later in future, I will alight at Admiralty and walk to school. Teehees =P
Super duper fun !!!
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 4:25 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2008 ♥
It happens..You can’t deny that..It just happen..
I know it is wrong, I know we are not supposed to do that. But we did it and that is done. You don’t have to go around judging him. You don’t need to hate us. He was protecting me, protecting our rights. What is wrong with that? Like you said, love is NOT blind. Love is beautiful. My love is beautiful. Everything that has happen is beautiful. It will still stay beautiful. I believe that. I am not blind. I know exactly what is happening. I allowed him. I know what he did and I know what he felt. He is smart. He is talented. I believe that. And I know he is not using me, he is not taking advantage of me. He is not playing with me.
You said something just now which made me thinks. All this time, I was in my own way. I was the one who didn’t allow me to stand on my own two feet. I didn’t stand on my own rights. I didn’t stand strong. And for the first time, my alter ego agreed on that. I am sorry if I were to blame you for making me like this. But sometimes, there isn’t really much choice for me.
It was hard for me to say that just now. It took me a lot of courage to say out what I wanted to say. And it is such a relieve. I am really tired of keeping things to myself. It just made my condition worse. I am already depressed enough. I am going to care for myself now. I am going to change for the better. What he did was really impressing but it didn’t amaze me. Maybe what you said is true. Maybe..maybe…
I am going to take another leap..
Another chance to strike..
Another opportunity for us being together..
Another story to start...
I don’t plan for us to part. I don’t plan for us to hate. You made a good impression at first, but you left a bad one in the end. I don’t blame you. We will make this happen again. I am sure of that. I promise you, whatever happens in the future, I WILL STILL CONTINUE TO CARE FOR YOU.
I am going to take another jump, to start anew..
Will you come with me?
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 11:48 PM
♥
ZeeQah
I dnt noe wat to do...
Kinda lost...
There is nothing in my head...
All blank...
So blank...
Super blank...
Blank Blank Blank...
Syukri
Why so blank baby??
Tell me whats bothering you or maybe whats stressing you...
ZeeQah
I miss you...
I miss you badly...
I dnt noe why...
All I think about is you...
And I wonder why I do that sometimes...
Wonder what will happen when u're not there...
Wonder what makes our relationship so bright to me...
Wonder why I care for you too much...
Syukri
*smile* All I can say right now is just be in my arms...
Let me be with you every sec, so when you miss me, I'm here for you to hug...
*hugs and kisses*
ZeeQah
I love you...
Syukri
Hahahaha.. I love you more than you know... =D
ZeeQah
I wanna be wf u all dae long..
Now and forever <3
Syukri
I never say cannot!!! wakakakaka...
Be glad to be there with you every moment... <33
ZeeQah
Tell you a secret...
Syukri
Ok, when you tell me, don't let the others hear you know...
Later not secret anymore.. Hahaha.. What is it??
ZeeQah
Okae..can2..*whisper*...
Syukri
Aww... Really??
I know that.. Thanks baby.. =)
ZeeQah
I love you...
I really do...
And wishing it will be forever...
*hugs and kisses*
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 5:00 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008 ♥
I LOVE TODAY....thnx baby <3
I dnt noe bout u but I felt I spent my whole day going around the world. Thank u for spending those wonderful moments with me despite being super duper tired and sleepy. This means alot to me, esp aft having u so far away from me for so many days. Just so u noe, U MAKE ME SUPER HAPPY TODAY !!! (",)
Me and Baby had breakfast at McDonalds (thnx for the Hot Cakes) then went arnd AMK. Aft that, we headed to Changi Airport !!!! The BEST-EST BEST place to spent time together. Like I said, I went around the world today.
Each kiss from u blows me to the other side of the world. I went to Australia, Japan, Macau, Brazil, Sweden, Canada... Hahaha.. This is soo exaggerating !!! I noe I noe.. But wat am I to do?? This is the best day of my life. I LOVE YOU..I LOVE YOU..I LOVE YOU <3
I still can't believe that we are together for a month now. It's super fast la.. Well, I kinda hope it will continue like this. Than we'll be spending time together for the rest of our lives. *Wishing for it to happen every nite*
Happy Anniversary Sweetheart
Love u lots lots <3
ps. Do rmbr to eat ur medications okae dear..And stop scratching the bites !!! U'll just feel more itchy ltr..go wash it or sometink aites.
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 10:11 PM
♥
Days without my Baby Syukri...
Friday, 14 Nov
Class is having VB todae and its pretty boring. I have forgotten a lot of things about coding and was in no mood to do. I don’t noe if it is just me or the class is getting colder. They should have turn up the temperature for God's sake. It is the rainy season !!!! Or maybe, I noe why im feeling so cold.. I miss my baby’s warm hugs and kisses . In this cold weather and boring class, it is super nice to sleep now. *Thinking bout my sweetheart*.. Gonna try help Zahra do the VB. Better not to rot and keep thinking bout my baby. Im just gonna make myself miss him more.
(12.40pm) Thinking how my baby is doing..
(1.09PM) I want by baby..
Everyone can't seem to figure out how to do the VB and one by one all is leaving class. Now, I really don't noe wat to do. To stay in class (do ntg coz I also dnt noe how to do) or follow them. I plan to escape from class on Monday and spent time with my baby.. I don't noe. I still have no plans to wat to do ltr. Teehees..
(1.43pm) Butterflies in stomach and headaches..Wishing my baby was here..
(2.05pm) Im going down now to buy bubble tea..To relieve my stress away..
You noe wat?? The plastic cover of the buble tea will usually haf pictures or watever rite.. Mine has the picture of a sheep and the letter "S".. Haha.. "S" for Syukri !!!! Oh manss, im really missing him. I gotta stop this. The more I think bout him, the more im gonna miss him. Now there's only 2 groups left. All the malays haf gone and they did ask me to join them but... NOOOOOO !!!!! Im not going !!!!! I will not go.. Teehees =P
(3.14pm) My VB is done.. Kinda plagiarise.. Hehe.. The first team is getting a hard time answering the faci..
(3.47pm) My team just finished presenting
(4.20pm) Listening to the 6p and feeling very very sleepy *yawn*
(5.15pm) I just woke up from sleep..wth!!
Saturday, 15 Nov
The ULTIMATE Race !!!!! NO WONDER, CHIRON !!!! This event occupied my whole day.. NO WONDER, CHIRON !!!! Met up wf Noorul and Ima at woodlands MRT at 8.45am??? Hahaha...Janji melayu... The race was a success but..NO WONDER, CHIRON !!!!
1) ADMIRALTY PARK. Funny funny.. We spent 30 mins there for no gd reason. All because we dnt noe there are THREE BRIDGES there.
2) JURONG BIRD PARK. We took cab there and spent arnd $15. Stupid fool..NO WONDER, CHIRON !!!!
3) SINGAPORE BOTANICAL GARDENS. Best or wat???? NO WONDER, CHIRON !!!! We ran, jog and walk all arnd. It was fun. It was tiring. And some ppl was trying to cheat us off. Hmm...They really shld tink first before messing wf us !!! Lol.. LOSERS!!!!
4) SINGAPORE ZOOLOGICAL. Went there to get us eaten by White Tigers.. Haha..(Zee, this is not funny la). Lucky Ima was able to see the signage in the picture, if not... I tink we'll still be running our ass off in the Botanical Garden. NO WONDER, CHIRON !!!!
5) MACRITCHIE RESERVOIR. Huhu.. We caught up wf the first team there. =P Tkmo mrh2 ehk krg..
6) EAST COAST PARK. This is the most WOW place.. NO WONDER, CHIRON !!!!
Bet this.. You need to go all this places by 4pm and do all the task by MRT and BUS !!!!! Craziee rite???? Watever la.. MAVEN IG RULES...No wonder, CHIRON...
Anyway, thnx Daddy..love you so much (",)
Sunday, 16 Nov
Woke up at 8am today. Mummy said that we are going for some outing..Haha.. At last we do sometink together as a family. I miss the days we would go out to eat together. I miss going to Johor every Saturday or Sunday together.
We went for breakfast first (the usual place). But today, the food there wasn't as appetizing as usual. Dad was complaining his food actually shouldn't haf this, shouldn't haf that. Sister also said sometink bout hers but I forgot wat. Teehees =] And mine?? Well, I ordered Mee Rebus. It's okae la except for the noodle. Why do they haf to cut the noodle?? I like it long !!!!! Lalalala.. I was eating peacefully when I notice there's this guy infront of me kept glancing at my direction. At first, I hack care. I am sooo NOT interested. Then it became super annoying. U noe, its super irritating when u want to eat and u noe people are watching. Yeah..He's doing that. So I decided to stare at him back. Guess wat he did??? He smiled..A sweet sweet smile..Which was politely returned by a WATEVER-IDIOT-FACE by ME.. Teehees. If Syukri was there, he'll be so dead !!! Lols.. Now im really missing his smile..his laughter..his kisses..his hugs..his stupid nonsense (which makes me laugh for no gd reason). I MISS YOU BABY...
Aft breakfast, we went to Causeway point. Brother needs pants !!! Haha.. The usual, we went to John Little to search for his Criss Cross Pants (his fav brand). I tried his pants just now and guess wat.. His waistline is bigger then mine la.. Hahaha.. My sis sae I looked very the cute when wearing that. I dnt noe. It's baggy.. Hip hop Woohoo!!!!! Then we went to Orchid Country Club. They were having a Family Carnival cum Bazaar. My sister was all excited bout it for days but it was a total BOREDOM !!!! Really ddnt expect it will turn out that way. Seriously, the clothes there we like..hmm..bleh la..bleh tahan BUROK lagi ade (SUPER DUPER FUGLY). Everytink there was SERIOUSLY BORING.. Is that wat they call family day??? OMG... We went there just to get popcorns..Haha..Better than ntg man. Aft that we went to Northpoint (no where else to go). The new shopping place was nice. Better than the carnival..Everytink there was having sale. SALE !!! SALE !!! SALE !!! Hahaha..And im going to buy the blue blouse that's $19.xx =P
Bought Chewy Juniors (ppl who dnt noe wat's this than u bttr try fast coz ur missing a whole lot of joy in cream puffs) and Old Chang Kee before heading hm.
I had a dream just now and erm..Its bout food. Yeah..FOOD !!! Weird.. Well, at least now my baby doesn't need to worie bout me not eating. I've been fed well sweetheart. Even in my dreams. Teehees <3>
Miss ur hugs & kisses
Hasta La Vista..
listened to the sweet sound @ 12:39 AM
Friday, November 14, 2008 ♥
My dear Baby,
No matter what happens I’ll always be yours.
Just to let you know, I miss you every day.
Even when you are right there in front of me.
There are no words that can explain what I am feeling right now.
The only thing I want is for you to hug me and lay your head on me.
To be assured that you are fine and safe.
It is not that long that we have been together but I felt as
if this relationship has been going on for such a long time.
I am really glad that I took that leap and trusted you to catch me when I fall.
You have been there for me whenever I need you.
Thank you so much.
Thanks for catching me whenever I fall.
Thanks for leading me to the path I need to go.
Thanks for being here by my side.
Please do take care of yourself when you go for your camp.
I am not there to look after you.
But remember, I will always be here when you need me.
To lend you my shoulder.
To give you my hugs.
To send you my kisses.
I love you...
I love you...
ps. Can I request not to be in ur coffee??? I dnt really like it..
Rather be in ur heart.. <3
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 12:55 AM
Monday, November 10, 2008 ♥
Ever felt u dnt belong? Watever u did was nvr enough? People expect more than that and will nvr be impress by ur hardwork? They go all around thinking they noe u best but when u tried to be that person, they sae u fake it. It just ain't working. Im lost !!! Lost in my thoughts... Lost in my world... Everything is getting worse, I cnt find myself no more. I cnt find the reason to live. A reason to fight. Cried every night wishing things would get bttr, but only God noes wat happen. Wat am I suppose to do? How can things be bttr? If a car would hit me and leave me dead, I dnt think anyone would ever notice. Their lives would be bttr I guess. Bttr without me...
Sometimes I do plan to do something lyk that. Just getting out of their lives. I dnt noe wat to do anymore. I am tired... Tired of thinking... Tired of listening and trying to make it bttr... Tired of being the person Im not... Im just going crazy... Im so stress !!!! My heart is so heavy. Why am I here? What is the reason for my existance? Why am I not dead? Isn't it bttr that way... No one will get hurt. No more reason to fight. No more misery.
I noe Im not suppose to think of all this. I have Syukri with me and watever happens he will be here for me. I noe that...but still.. *Sob Sob* Im so sowie sweetheart. I noe this hurts. I noe u'll do ur best to help me and take this burden off me but I noe nothing can be done. I've been feeling this way since I was young. And this problem is still here. Dnt u worie so much okae baby, I'll be fine... I just need time for myself I guess. To calm myself.
Firstly this morning, my laptop cnt sign in to VPN. I was olready annoyed and was in no mood when I got to sch and this just adds on to it. How bad can the dae be? Well...REALLY REALLY BAD !!!! During the second breakout, I sent it to the IT- helpdesk.. Got it back and I thought everything will be fine. Turn out, that was just the starting of the disaster. Stomach got really bad and I was vomitting during presentation. Manager called in last minute telling me I dnt need to work. Was having no appetite to eat at all. Actually, I haf not eaten for 3 days olready. I haf been surviving on cold water only. Then now, when I got hm... My laptop is giving me tons and tons of prob. Cnt use wireless. Cnt sign in to VPN. Cnt log in to LEO. Cnt send in my RJ. Cnt use the Microsoft Power Point & Word. UT client and UT agent not working..TMR GOT UT LA SEI !!!!
FUCKING ASSHOLE DAMN SHIT.. arrghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fatin, Fiza and Rena talk to me just now talking bout the same old topic. "Zee, u not gonna climb anymore??".. Yeah I noe it's sad that Im not climbing anymore and this wasn't wat anybody suspect would happen but it did. YES, I AM NOT CLIMBING ANYMORE!!!!!! Pls, can we not talk bout this anymore?? Im still paranoid as it is. Im still mad at wat has happen. All of u noe that I love climbing so much. It is not my decision to stop climbing. I still want to climb. I miss going to Sports Complex aft class. I miss climbing. I miss joking around and climbing all the routes with all of u. But rite now, no one is approving me to climb. NO ONE!!! How sad can that be? Im so sowie guys.. Fatin, I really dnt noe if I can still keep the promise and train u to be one of the best. Fiza and Rena, Im really sowie that we cnt be the TERUKS anymore. Im really really sowie Mummy.. Yeah we are all sad, but pls dnt be coz it'll make me feel more bad. =(
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 9:40 PM
Sunday, November 9, 2008 ♥
I am super tired.. Had a long day today.. I've not been working for about 2 or maybe 3 long months and have been super lazy all the time. Today was suffering !!! I was feeling sleepy and tired at about 2pm (only 2 hrs had passed) then all the pain was coming back. My legs were feeling tired and my back was aching. The first day wasn't wat I had expected. It was more fun than that..haha.. Alot have change comparing to the one before this. Still, there are some little things that stay the same.
1. I still have the habit to walk around the shop and poke to every shoe (feel the sponginess..haha)
2. Kenny and me still fight and pick on each other every minute.. Teehees
3. Kenny still haf the habit to try all the shoes in the shop (Secret btwn u and me..I think he try on ladies shoes as well..wakaka)
4. I still admire children's shoes and wish I could get them for myself
5. Kenny keep calling me names..ishhh (watever la ehk..I noe Im still bttr then u)
I noe I lyk to admire and comment on the guys that pass through the shop last time. But now..heee..I cnt really do that..If I did, that would be my alter ego. She nvr listens to me. But for me, I'll still think of my baby and how hot he is..*innocent face*..Teehees
Well, yeah..It was fun. I kinda miss working but now since I am going to start work again.. It means that I will not haf free time anymore..sigh.. When I returned home just now, mum was very excited and happy. She took out the calculator and start estimating my pay for the mth. Haha..how bad can that be?? That was supposed to be my job. I always do that the last time. Teehees..
Since I am not going to climb anymore, mum wanted me to work everyday (MON TO SUN).. I haf to work even during sch daes. I dnt mind actually, but, how am I to commit and find time for my baby?? I wnt get to spent time wf him anymore aft sch..sigh.. Looking at the calender, I just notice...
next 2 weeks is our 1 mth anniversary..
I got 5 more weeks to see my baby..
then, 3 weeks of holidae (the first week lies our 2 mths anniversary)..
3 weeks of seeing him in sch again (our 3rd mth anniversary lies on a SAT which means CANNOT SPENT TIME COZ MUST WORK)..
then, NO MORE SCH!!!!!! Which means...I CNT SEE HIM OR SPENT TIME WF HIM ANYMORE. The only thing I'll be doing is work and work and work and work and work..
Gosh, Im really really super sad rite now. But baby, no matter wat I will keep my promise to u. We will (I dnt noe when) eat breakfast together, watch a movie together and haf dinner together..sigh.. Mummy told me just now that by sch start for 2nd yr, I must haf $1000 wf me. The rest of it (if there's any) will be my shopping money for clothes and stuff. Teehees..
I love u so so much..Muacks!!!
Hasta La Vista...
listened to the sweet sound @ 12:31 AM
Friday, November 7, 2008 ♥
The days are getting lesser…
Time is getting shorter…
Emotionally getting stronger...
Looking down upon u, the world was getting more beautiful. Meeting u was a gift fm God, getting to know u was a choice I made (which im really thankful I did), loving u was unintentional. Time is really hard for us to get rite now. Even though we are always busy running our own lives, I just wanna let u know that im always here loving u and supporting u. Ur the sweetest guy I’ve ever met. As far as im concern, I will not let my existence stop u fm doing wat u love (even if it means not getting to see each other). These are just little sacrifices that will go a long way in our relationship. That is wat I believe. So don’t u worie bout me coz I’ll be fine.
Jump for Joy Challenge was a disaster. For the past weeks, the past meetings, everything was fine. It was going according to plan. Everything was rehearsed. Last minute, that IDIOT lady change everything!!!! Wat a stuck up!!!!! Arrghhhhhh…
Anyway, my back is getting bttr. Yeepee!!!!! It aint hurting no more but I still got to be careful though. I cnt be putting stress on it anymore. I won’t do anything that will make it worse. All thnx to my baby and wat we talked abt tt dae in Long John Silver. Saying is praying, believing is making it true. Watever tt is said by u is a prayer and when u believe bout something, it will come true and it will nvr change. The power of our mind!!
Met up wif Danial ytd..He was lepaking under my block. Guess wat, he injured his leg. Coincidence or wat?? Akhil injured his hand, I injured my back and Danial injured his leg. BFF..haha
**Stomach is growling..haha
Hasta La Vista..
listened to the sweet sound @ 10:04 AM
Monday, November 3, 2008 ♥
Do u believe in fortune tellers or being psychic? Do u believe in the supernatural world? Ghost and demons? I do..I believe in all these “craps” coz somehow I haf experienced all of them. I saw a lot of them before. Being haunted by them before. I was admitted to hospital last year before my O levels. Sometink bout my lower back.
I was the healthiest kid in my family and around my friends. I rarely fell sick. My body was immune to coughs and flues. But last year, after my NAPFA test, I started having cramps around my lower back. My mum said that I overworked my muscles and needed a lot of rest. The pain continued for weeks. Even Porous Capsicum Plaster (Medicated Plaster) wnt heel it. The pain worsens and worsens. To add on to my misery, at tt time my grandma was in hospital. She has cancer and was critical. I was taken care by my close couz and my aunt. They live near my hs so yeah.. My mum and dad would be in hospital aft work. My siblings would follow them sometimes. My couz brought me to the Polyclinic for check ups. Doctors gave me pain killers (indomethacin) and some cream for muscle pain relieve. Ate them and went to sleep aft reaching “hm”. Guess wat happen when I woke up.. My face was lyk puffer fish. I was sent to KK Hospital A&E straight away. They sae I was allergic to the medicine and injected some medicine to subsides it. Aft tt dae..I got a lot of this puffer fish even though I ddnt eat tt medicine anymore. I went in and out of the hospital as if it was my hm.. Doctor’s sae tt it was my immune system. It was too active. So there was a battle in my body!!! Aft a few more visits to the hospital, I was admitted to it. It was so sudden. It was during sch time !! Blah..blah..blah.. THE STUPID DOC DNT EVEN NOE WAT IM SUFFERING FM !!! They assume I tore my muscle.. Tearing of muscle will hurt everytime. For mine, it hurt certain time. It come and goes. MRI also ddnt detect anitink. Went to “bomoh” and was told tt there were 2 ghosts hanging onto me. Cool? Cool? NOT cool..
Back to the psychic thingy.. I haf a friend who kinda can feel the supernatural thingy. She can see the future too at some points. I dnt noe how to describe. It comes in her dreams. Yesterdae..
Friend: (In a serious tone) How did u fall tt time?
Me: On my butt..told u tt olreadi
Friend: I noe.. but how?
Me: I was holding my 3rd last tile..reaching up to my 2nd last tile..i kinda slip and fell..
Friend: Ouh..okae..u noe..I got this feeling u were being pulled
Me: Huh?
Friend: Sometink pulled u..tt y u fell..
Me: Ohh..okae..
And now it is bothering me soo much!! Shld I believe her?? Shld I not?? She nvr had been crappy u noe.. Whatever she had said to me in the past all came true. Shld I investigate? Shld I just let it go? PARANOID!!!!!!!!!
Thnx Fatin for supporting me.. I noe I will be back (I hope). And when I come back im gonna train u to be best like me. Haha.. U got the power in u!!!
Shawn, cheer up okae.. Dnt feel sad sad laa.. ltr I sad also noe.. Tell me wat happen soon okae.. SMILE!!!!!
Hasta La Vista..
listened to the sweet sound @ 10:12 AM
Saturday, November 1, 2008 ♥
MUHAMMAD SYUKRI BIN ANUAR, will u be mine? Teehees.. I love u soo soo much. Im really sowie I cnt go out wf u tmr aite. Promise me we’ll celebrate on the 17th olrite. Be my baby always =]
Love You So, Natalie
From the minute that you got my attention
I was taken and I have to mention
I was trying to not let it show
But I knew I wasn't gonna let you go
From the way that you came right to me
Looking all hot with the style that threw me
No one would've ever known it
You would be the one who take this heart and hold it
You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me
Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Do you know it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know
You can can say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Want everyone know that boy is mine
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me
You take me there at times
I feel I lose control
Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding
You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me
Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know
Please know this
I'll always be right here
And you don't have to look
Nowhere else babe
Don't think for a minute
This love will change
Oh you should know that
Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know
Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know
Olrite2..i noe im getting mushy and all. So who care? My baby loves me.. And tt wat counts!! My back is aching. Aching real bad. I cnt sneeze, cough, get hiccups or burb.. It sucks rite? So sucky.. I was suppose to go to Yishun Polyclinic todae but I ddnt.. Teehees =P.. Im scared.. Scared of wat is bothering my back.. Scared of wat might happen.. Scared of everytink.
Hasta La Vista..
listened to the sweet sound @ 8:38 PM
