Monday, January 19, 2009 ♥
Finally Climb.Max ’09 is over. Yeah!!! Everything was a blast from the start till the end. There was some unforeseen circumstances here and there but everything was fixed and in action. Congrats to MR CUTE GUY in winning the ___ placing for the ___ Men’s category (Some info are kept confidential, if not ltr ppl will cfm know who he is). Hees… I told you, you can do it. xP
My life also has been in the adrenaline rush. Some has noticed that I am being very happy lately and ASKED ME WHY… Haizz.. You people uh.. When I am sad, ask why… When I am happy also ask why… Well, here are my answers...
I realize that I have been leading my life the wrong way. I kept feeling frustrated of not getting myself to be myself. It is as if there was something distracting me. I thought it was all the sadness that I have to go through. But actually, it was me all along. I’ve forgotten who I am and what I believe in. Since that day, I don’t feel angry anymore. There wasn’t any hollowness in me and no more of the pain. I knew I was alright. I am pulling myself together and being strong. And I conquered myself...
Slowly, all the illness and the pain that I was going through fade away. I stopped vomiting and got my appetite back. SERIOUSLY GOT MY APPETITE BACK!! I am as healthy as I was before. I am also starting my physical training to keep me fit and back in shape. And I conquered my illness and more of myself...
The best thing is, my mind don’t ponder on him anymore. My heart was immune to the pain. My tears stopped spilling. Which in all means I AM SOOOO OVER HIM… I can’t believe I did it. I though, the hurting won’t stop and im going to dread not having him. I thought my heart will break every night. But, nah.. We had a small conversation after school on Thursday. We cleared things out. I hope after this our relationship as a friend gets better. None of us want to hurt each other, I am sure of that. And I conquered him...
I didn’t attend school on Friday. Not because I want to skip class or whatever, I had an appointment to go to. Mum and dad ask for leave that day so that they can send me to TTSH. Once again, it was a total waste of time and money. Firstly, must wait so long for my number to be called. Then, about 5 minutes later, everything was over. Haizz.. Its either I was being so dumb that day or the doctor got something wrong. I don’t understand the slang of the doctor. So I was like “huh?” the whole time. And I totally don’t know what to say to him. The only thing I said that day was “I fell on my butt from about 2-3m height and I fractured my spine”. The doctor looked at the X-Ray of my spine then asks me to bend forward and backwards. Then he makes another appointment for me in a month time. Bullshit.. I should have shut up then all this wouldn’t happen. And I conquered my injured back (which I think I already did long time ago, it’s just my stupid mouth that I got to go through all this)...
On Saturday, it was the finals for Climb.Max ’09. I was busy being the route judge the whole day. Mind you, it is from morning (first category) around 10.00am to night (last category) 10.00pm. So it is like 12 hours of watching the climbers climb the ALC wall (if short never mind, so high up..my neck pain u noe). It was fun and totally exhausting. When the competition was ending, I realize that it was the 17th that day. Haha.. I so totally made the day with great accomplishments without him in my mind. I was chatting with Fiza about it and Izzat (who was eavesdropping) was trying to understand what was I kecoh-ing about. Too bad uh, I can’t tell you la Izzat.. Haha.. And I conquered my stress...
Also, the most best-est best thing ever, I “spent” my whole 17/01/09 with MR CUTE GUY. What’s not to be SOO HAPPIE about?? Teehees xP
There are still more issues that I have to conquer before I fix all the pieces in the puzzle. Till I do that, I am going to strive for success and keep on smiling (:
ps. I WANT MY PICS LA IZZAT!!!!!!
Hasta La Vista
listened to the sweet sound @ 9:23 AM
