All In Me

Monday, December 15, 2008 ♥

After all that has been through, after all the pain that has suffered, it is time to let go. Holding on to it gives no benefit, thinking about it just hurts me more. It is time. All this happens for a reason and what my Baby always says, there’s always a blessing in disguise! All you need is patience and strong will. There is no point sobbing all day and all night. What has happen has happened. Don’t hurt yourself by it. Don’t think about it too much. Don’t depress yourself.

Wakakaka.. OMG !!! I can’t believe all that actually comes from me. Talking like a pro and trying to show a good example to others. Such a bullshit, you should try coming into my life and see what I really do. It is the TOTAL OPPOSITE!!! Hahaha…But hey, it is true okae.. Try applying all that when you are down, when you are at a total lost. It helps..

I know it seems super fast for me to get through all this. It is as if it doesn’t really matter to me. It does okae, there are thousands of bucket in the kitchen just filled with my tears (Not joking). It is either that I am too forgiving and forget, or just being too unbearably stressed up, or just having my mood swings again.

From what I know, I woke up yesterday feeling so happy and light. The burden from my heart just disappeared. The worries in my head vanished. And after that, everything just took its place. I was having a great day.

1. My boss just employed someone. Her name is Ain. Cool right?? Haha..The feeling of wanting to quit was blown away.

2. Back home, my mum spoke to me. At last she speaks to me again saying that she forgives me. After almost 1 month of speechless conversation, she speaks to me again. =]

3. I told Baby about it and told him how happy I was feeling. I think it makes him smile (I hope coz that is my intention) and hope it takes of some of his burdens and worries away. He is going through a lot right now. But hey, I will always be here for you okae dear. Now you have one less thing to worry about. Do your stuff, don’t worry about me coz I’ll be fine.

4. I cheered Noorul up (“,). She was also super sad and has been sobbing for 1 week now. She had issues about the exact same thing I was having. But it is not her and her bf, it is her and her best friend/sister/someone she looks up to. The relationship just falls apart.

Welcome aboard my lady!!! Haha..I am so bad right?? Well, who cares, you still love me..I know you do..Don’t lie Noorul.. Wakakaka.. All it takes is a smile. A smile of care, sincere, love and happiness. Smile with me, anyone. <3

This is for you..for all of you

I may not run very far
I may not be a superstar
Try my best, I must
In my strengths, I trust
I am glad to be me
I am a VIP! (mcm phm..)

ps. thnx for ur support everyone..love u lots <3

Hasta La Vista

listened to the sweet sound @ 8:13 PM