Saturday, December 27, 2008 ♥
The trip to Sentosa was super duper fun!!!!!!! I planned to post something about it but I wasn’t in the mood. Maybe next time yeah.. Also I lost the best picture of the trip. Haizz...I am so stressed up right now. Whatever I do, I kept thinking about it. It is so freaking me out, Compressed Fracture L1. This is what has been bothering me. Mum talked to her client that is expert on this just now and she said it is very painful and if not given proper care, I may be paralyzed. It is the exact same thing as getting hit by a speeding car. Then my mum was like “Ohh..You are so strong. How can you bear this pain for 2 months? Lucky we send you for an X-ray, if not you are going to bear this pain for only God knows how long.” Haizz… I seriously think that all of them are just exaggerating. I don’t feel the pain like that…Or is it just that I’ve been feeling and keeping in a lot of pain to myself and this has caused me to feel this way? But I know that since that fall, there is a thing bulging out in my spine. Maybe that is the bone that has been crushed. Hmm… This is one thing...And this is another… Mum said that my dad and she had agreed to send me to TTSH tonight rather than waiting till the appointment day. OMG!!!!!!!!! I so don’t want to go. This is the reason why I don’t like telling them about the pain. This is what I am afraid of. I don’t want to go there. She also said that if the doctor asked the rating of the pain, I must exaggerate about it. Tell them that it is about 7/10 or 8/10 even if it is not. One reason for this coz they will only check on you thoroughly if it really hurts and another is coz I am already like ‘immune’ to the pain and she know I will confirmed say around 4/10 or 5/10. ):I am so in dilemma now. I don’t know if I really have to do that or not. Here are some possibilities that I had thought of.If I exaggerate:
~ The doctors will make my condition as importance to them
~ They will attend to me more professionally
~ Find a possible diagnosed that will cure it in the most efficient way
~ I may be an IN-PATIENT (which I don’t want to)
~ I may be having tough therapy~ I may even get myself into OPERATION!!!! (which I don’t want to)If I do not exaggerate:~ They will think it is a normal pain
~ They will try to subsides the pain
~ They will do things slowly
~ Go through a lot of possible way that I can do to prevent it from getting worse
~ They may find other alternatives for me~ I may live with the pain forever or until my spine get wellI don’t know anymore… Haizz… So what am I suppose to do??? HELPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!ps. Thanks to Mr. Cant-be-named for you know what… Haha… Secret between you & me (:Hasta La Vista
listened to the sweet sound @ 4:27 PM
