Sunday, March 8, 2009 ♥
I’ve been tied up with Gravical at SMU this few days. I went there on Friday to support our climbers in novice man and woman. Congrats to Fatin, Zulaikha, Fiza, Syahmi and Shabirin for making it to the finals. GOOD LUCKS AITES (:The competition is kinda average I suppose, nothing special. I like the artistic painting on the wall the most. Hahaha.. I compete in intermediate woman’s category on Saturday. This is the first time for me to compete in an outside competition and under INTERMEDIATE category.. It was a good experience for me. The results weren’t that disappointing actually coz I somehow foresee where I stand. Hahaha.. I know myself and I know where my position is.It was a last minute decision to enter the competition. I kinda beg and plead my mum to allow me to enter the night before, but she still refuses. She said she’ll tell me the next day. So I woke her up the early next morning for her answer. I felt bad but it’s not really my fault, isolation closes at 9am. She allowed but wasn’t in an encouraging tone. More like the whatever-whatever tone.I don’t feel like entering anymore and thought about it again and again in the train. Nevertheless, I still compete with the mindset of just getting the experience and for the sake of trying out the wall. Hahaha.. Coz it looks cool!!! And I know deep down my mum still don't allow me to climb.Anyway, congrats to Zayd for making it to the finals. I left a little early coz my family wanted to go to IKEA and my couz birthday party. I was shag already by that time and my spine was getting tired. Reached home at around 3am. I was 100% gone already still shag and aching.Today...It was just disappointing.. I plan to go SMU to support our finalist but had to cancel it for something that didn’t happen. Mum wants me to follow her to somewhere. I thought of just going SMU for awhile then come back and accompany her coz she said it is around 2+. When she was confirming her reservations, she told me that it was around 12+ and ask me not got go SMU. I agreed but later she told me it was cancelled, then said that I can go SMU if I want to. How frustrating can it be?I was so pissed, I don’t even feel like going anywhere for the day. I wouldn’t even make it for novice woman if I were to go then. So what’s the point? I got no mood...And now, thinking of Boulderactive + my mum + I don’t have the trust in myself anymore, it just makes me wanna quit climbing. I am tired of fighting with my mum about climbing. I am sick of trying to prove to them and myself that I can still do it. I am going crazy with the words of others that I just need more time to settle everything down. I don't have the heart to do it anymore.Hasta La Vista
listened to the sweet sound @ 11:47 AM
