I’m thinking…Thinking for so long and yet still thinking. I know this is what I’m not to pay attention to for now (in my current situation) but I can’t help it. I want to know about it…Nah…I NEED to know about it. ~TRUE LOVE~
Yes, yes…True love! Does it really exist? How do you know if that person you are with is YOUR true love? This thought…This topic…This words… It’s not leaving my mind. Since the day YOU grab my attention. And now, we have been together for 4 months… WE, have gone through ALOT of situation, ALOT of hardship, ALOT of trouble and ALOT of smiles and laughter, together with our friends under the moon and the stars of our hometown.
I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone because of YOU. I’ve opened up because of YOU. I’m more courageous because of YOU. I’ve matured because of YOU. I’ve changed a lot of perceptions because of YOU. I’m noticeable, not invisible anymore…because of YOU.
YOU know how to reach my heart. YOU know how to soften my hardest shell. YOU, by a single touch, can calm my most wicked demonic self… Yet again, YOU can make me wrathful. YOU can fill me with hatred and jealousy. YOU can make me lost in my own world.
I feel alive whenever I’m with YOU. I don’t feel pressurized being with YOU. YOU lighten my burdens and help me solve my puzzles. Whenever I’m with YOU, I always want the time to stop. I don’t want to go home and leave YOU out of sight.
I’m not certain about the future but I can’t deny that right now… YOU, Hairul Nizam Bin Roslan, ARE EVERYTHING TO ME!
I Love You Dearest
Hasta La Vista...
It has been long since I updated. Been so busy with the ups and downs of life! And once again, I feel lost.. Lost in my own universe, lost in my own soul..
Ytd was the release of PSLE results and Sharul score 217 for his PSLE. Good job bro! Can’t believe he got better results than me. Hmph! I hope he will continue giving this kinds of results and get better in his O level.. He may enter Yishun Secondary School, coz it is near.. HAHAHA!! Anw, he is eligible for a 3rd language. I don’t know if he is going to take it or not but I hope he did. (:
Haidah gave good results too for her End of Year exams but she can do better. She got band 2 for all subjects and she gets the chance of taking Higher Mother Tongue. And this scares me a lot. I know that by the rate I am going and my misbehaving, I won’t get good results this semester. That is not what I am aiming for. I gotta start going to school.. gotta stop being lazy.. gotta keep Nizam away fm behaving. I know it’s a very LAME reason to blame Nizam for this coz he did nothing wrong. I was the one who always get distracted. I keep having thoughts that I am not able to handle everything together.
But no matter what, I am not going to end this relationship. Nizam has always been there for me. He may be some kind of bad influence and has hurt me from time to time. I still love him so dearly I am not able to let him go. I don’t want to let him go! I don’t want this relationship to stop. I don’t want to lose him..
Hasta La Vista...
Sabotage - Kristinia Debarge
(It's sabotage now)
I keep praying she'll leave me alone
(Leave me alone)
But she keeps waiting outside of my home
I got an angel on the left sayin'
Dont give in
But the devil on the right's sayin'
Let her in
She wont stop kicking down my door
(ah no ah no)
[Chorus]
But each time I try to play the good girl
I let myself get in the way
I try so hard to fight the bad girl
But she's here to stay
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(and now my heart is)
Broken all over again
(It's sabotage now)
I cant hold onto guys that I like
(no no no)
She keeps lookin' with wandering eyes
I got an angel on the left screaming
Get away
But the devil on the right's saying
Time to play (ooh)
And I cant take it anymore
It's sabotage now
[Chorus]
Each time I try to play the good girl
I let myself get in the way
I try so hard to fight the bad girl
But she's here to stay
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(and now my heart is)
Broken all over again
(It's sabotage now)
When I fall in love I
cause myself so much pain
I sabotage my heart and
and I dont know how to change
It doesnt matter what I say
or what I do'
Cuz in the end she always wins I always loose
I need to get her out of my life
Each time I try to play the good girl
I let myself get in the way
I try so hard to fight the bad girl
But she's here to stay
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(and now my heart is)
Broken all over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(It's sabotage now)
Over and over again
(and now my heart is)
Broken all over again
(It's sabotage now)
Hasta La Vista...
I am so late for the SECOND day of school! Hahaha...totally forgot that I start earlier today!.. Reached class bout 30mins later! Anw, HAPPIE BDAE DADDY!!! We celebrated his bdae at midnight (the usual routine).. We bought him Opera cake from Polar and 4 t-shirts from Bossini :D
Ytd, I went to park to see Nizam play football and hang out with his/my friends! Guess wat! Firdaus (the-guy-at-the-end-of-the-blk aka my eyecandy) was there too!! He dyed his hair golden brown and it was soo damn GORGEOUS...NOT!!!! Its uber ugly laaaa.. He look so much hotter with black hair!
Nizam noticed that Firdaus kept glancing at me..haha.. JEALOUS! Hehe...LOVE YOU BABY!.. I hope today's plan will not be disturb like ytd's! I really wanna spent time with Nizam..I miss him soo much! And its only right for me to stay by his side when he is sick right?? Poor him...
Scratching my whole body! Itchy laaa....
Hasta La Vista
Hasta La Vista
